“What’s the matter?”

As I’m sitting here with my nice, tall hot cup of tea, one caramel Tim Tam and a fully charged laptop, I can’t help but feel like there’s something wrong. Of course if you’re a blogger this would be the most ideal writing environment to actually spew out content one after the other. What you don’t know is what my living room looks like, the room in which I’m writing this post.

Imagine throwing every item from your kitchen into the living room. My parents have decided to renovate our kitchen so, there you have it. In all seriousness, this room is a mess. Why I choose to work down here instead of the comfort of my bed? I have no idea.

There is so much going on in my head right now that I can’t even remember what I did this morning. Between my untidy desk, frustration to find a part time job and my more serious young adulthood responsibilities like paying off my credit card bill, I feel like The Intern’s Jule Ostin in that one scene where the zoom function of her website wasn’t working. There are so many things that I feel a 19-year-old shouldn’t have to worry about although in retrospect, learning to cope with stress is actually good. This is preparing me for the rest of my life — something that school never taught me.

So where am I going with this? I decided I want to write more personal posts on 53 marcel because a) I realized that while this is a lifestyle/fashion/beauty/whatever-you-want-to-call-it blog, I also want young readers to feel somewhat prepared for real life scenarios that are going to come their way; and b) I’m feeling inspired.

**Disclaimer: I’m only 19 and I obviously don’t have a professional background to back me up in this article, but I’m coming at you with fresh insight and the brutal truth of how the premature stages of adulthood are like. 

Let me try to bring my scattered thoughts into nice bullet-points — something school has taught me.

  • The untidy desk…


    Not quite there yet, but what an improvement!

    I feel like I’m always going to struggle with this one. I blame my room for being too small and I also partially blame my parents for not drilling in any useful shelves for me. Anyone know of great “DIY organizational tips for small rooms” video? 

  • This table was looking a lot like the one from The Intern before Robert De Niro took care of it.
  • The messy closet…OK let’s face it, my closet will never be big enough.
  • Desperate, unemployed teenager syndrome…Every morning, I open my laptop and the first website I go to, is my local mall’s “Career page”. There are at least 5 job postings on the page unfortunately, most of the employers are looking for “experienced individuals” – perfect. Here’s a message to all retailers: How am I supposed to get experience if I’m not qualified to get it in the first place?

  • The monthly credit card statement…“Build your credit,” they said. “It’ll be fun,” they said. I’m not sure if “they” ever said that, but you get the point. I was actually pretty stoked to own a credit card because I’ve always been taught that building a good credit score is crucial to be an active member of society. While I do consider myself a responsible young lady for never missing a bill payment, I missed it for the first time this month. Let me tell you, don’t ever let yourself fall into the “low interest rate” crap. You definitely don’t want to give the bank more money than you owe. My unemployed status is obviously not helping my situation at all, luckily I have money saved up to pay off my bill.

    Could we also talk about how high school doesn’t teach you what exactly a credit card is and how crucial it is to have one?

  • The constant “when are you going back to school?” question…

    This is for my fellow gap-year readers or those of you who have chosen not to go back to school to do your own thing! Back in February, I dropped out of school. It came as a bit of a shock to most of my relatives, but I don’t regret my decision. Of course my admitting to them that I’m no longer in school was always followed by, “When are you going to go back?”. To be honest, I don’t mind this question however, why is this an automatic first response? Why isn’t it, “What’re you doing now?” or “That’s great! What made you decide to do that?”.
    Well, to answer these questions: “Probably soon. Right now, I feel more inclined to figure out my interests and passions”. For those of you who are currently enrolled in school and are second guessing yourselves, take a step back and reevaluate your situation and think about these questions: Are you happy? Do you think that your field of study is going to bring you true happiness or is it going to be compromised for the sake of someone else’s?

    If you feel strapped down by a to-do list that was written down for you, remember that it’s 100% ok to be selfish. This goes for anything in life. This is going to sound so cliché: we’re only granted one chance at life and we should take new/exciting opportunities as they come. If you’ve never watched Charlotte Tilbury talk about this, after reading this you should watch her interview with Man Repeller’s Leandra Medine. Those two women have changed my life.

I’ve dealt with a lot of emotional highs and lows since February and even though I hated those long days of feeling lonesome while everyone I knew was either at school or work, I wouldn’t change anything about my experiences. I learned a lot about myself and the career I want to pursue. My passion is undoubtedly fashion and beauty; 53 marcel has already given me the platform I have always desired to have in order to step into these industries. As for the other points, I’ve been trying to keep my responsibilities organized by creating more todo lists, so that I can tackle adulthood with a steel of amour. For those of you still struggling to balance everything on your lists, don’t worry because everyone else is trying to catch up too. 

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